Summer 2007

Must’ve been a nice day out.. I thought to myself as I watched the sunset from my balcony.  I’d been out partying since Friday afternoon and finally gotten to bed that morning around 5AM.  I sat on this old wooden table my roommate had brought from his old place and lit my cigarette. I took one haul and started hacking uncontrollably, inadvertently waking up the rest of my body and boy was it ever upset!.

I turned to my roommate who had just walked out on to the balcony and asked him if he wanted the rest of my smoke because I wasn’t feeling so hot.  Truth is I felt like death and not that mid 20′s   hangover “death” either – it was like I was falling apart from the inside out and my body was ready to give out at any second.  I was genuinely worried that I would not make it through my second smoke let alone the night.

I went back to bed with the realization that something was not right in the world in my world and at 25 I should not be feeling like this.

Something has got to change, I have got to change.

Stay tuned…..

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